Acceleration!!!!!

In the past couple of months, life was like a bullet train. I was rushing through time, working non stop to earn money for myself, doing assignments like never before, cause it's really tough here, and prepared for exam like never before, cause it's much easier here.. Hehe! And million thanks to my dear for going through all these with me, and she'll thanks me as well for going all these with her! Haha!

Lately, I've worked a lot, worked for many different company at different event, learned many things, made new friends. Some job are easy, as easy as ABC, some job are challenging, and some job are like labor worker; I had to bring gallons of gallons of water in and out from shopping center, 10 hours a day for 5 days. I could say that it was the toughest job I've ever worked, almost like a slave, but a modern 1, cause it required me to wear slack and leather shoe..WTF! But, at the end of the day, what mattered the most to me is the pay! I earned quite an amount of money. Hello Phuket, T-shirts, Jeans, Shoes, Foods, and Stuffs, I'm coming!

Then there were assignments that are harder than ever before. 1st is Malaysian Studies assignment. It's very challenging, and funny as well. We were told to do an event that has got anything to do with Malaysia, be it selling local food, cultural dance, costume, and so on. We decided to do a performance on wedding of 3 major races in Malaysia, which are Malay, Chinese and Indian. Everyone were assigned different task in order to made the performance possible. We went around KL and looked for wedding costume and stuffs. Time consuming. Frustrating. Tiring. We somehow managed to pull it off and performed quite flawlessly that day, quite an amazing experience performing on stage to all HELP students, quite nerve wrecking as well. LOL!

Here are some of the pictures:

The Indian couple (Sandy and Me)

I washed her feet...

She washed my feet in return. Haha!

The Malay Couple

The Chinese Couple..

And yes, that is Ah Foo(2nd from right), with his new bride..haha!

The whole assignment team

And then we had an Accounting assignment, a very interesting and challenging 1, had to really dig into our brain to sort out the answer. Luckily we managed to submit it right on time, just 5 minute before the door close, really KL people style la.. Hehe! Then another assignment from Malaysian Studies agian, this time, min.800 words within 2 days..phewww! What an assignment!

Now, I have 1 more assignment in hand, min. 1500 words, to be submitted in 2 weeks time, and in 2 weeks time, my final exam, 4 subjects!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!

On the other hand, it's our 4th month together! Dear, I'm so happy to be with you in this 4 months! We climbed to the peak of the mountain, and plunged into the lowest point of the sea, hand in hand we passed through everything with the support of each other.. I love you! Happy 4 months together! Well, although we had no time to celebrate it cause we were busy helping your mum, and rushing our assignment, in our heart, we know we have each other. That's the most important thing. Muak!

Looking back, everything seems happened in a blink of an eye.. Amazing!


Need some Energy BOOSTER!

A special day that we have waited for so long...

毕业典礼的那天，真的真的很开心，一来是我毕业了，二来是我父母来参加我的毕业典礼，三来是收到两束花，第一束是我家人送的，第二束是terence妈妈送的，很开心哦，四来是我不用做工，好轻轻噢！

最后，当然是我可以和我的好好朋友出去咯！那就是，kathy,carrie and foo去fullhouse吃好吃的东西，爽！然后还去1U,最后还可以和kathy一起八！哈哈哈！至于八些什么就不可以讲咯！private and confidential嘛！哈哈！

那天真的很开心，很久都没有酱颠了，我们还全部人拍超超超多照片，有丢帽子啦，有搞笑啦，有全体啦，有个人啦，等等。。。什么都有，相机还多到像记者会，真的是超爽！
第二天，我们还全部约好去还衣服和买照片，哈哈！真的很很很开心！


难望和开心

Two Months Ago...

哇，好久好久没有写部落格了！甚至这是我在两个月前就开始写到现在！

这一个月真的真的很忙，忙考试，忙做工，忙功课，忙到傻！看着日记本都还是要烦！
不过在忙的同时，都有一些令我感动的事情的！说到这点，我很开心也很感动！上个礼拜，我去做工，傻傻的他一直在角落看了我三个小时才回！晚上，他七点就出现了，他以为我还没吃，所以来陪我吃晚餐！当他看到我时，刚好我刚吃完晚餐！结果，他便一个人去逛街等到我十点放工！好感动，我觉得等人不是很容易的东西，更何况他等了我三个小时！我超爱他！因为他是唯一一个对我这样好的人！结果当天的他没有吃到晚餐，我好内疚！

前天，我们一起去见工，然后他带我去Fullhouse吃午餐，那边的东西很很很好吃，就像他所说的，很久都没有吃过这样满足的午餐了！当时，他在那边看上一个鞋子，他叫我试，还帮我穿鞋子，很意想不到的细心！结果我们都很喜欢那双鞋子，他最后还买了那双鞋子送给我！真的真的很开心！
在这两个礼拜内，我们每一天每一个小时每一分钟都在见面！很开心！不过，忙着赚钱的我们即将要面临分开的几天！这将会是我们分开最久的一段日子，不能想像没有他陪我在上课时，我会怎样！

昨天，他带我去朋友的生日会，我真的很开心！过后还去喝茶！我们最近去了很多很多地方，也懂很多好吃的东西在那里！不过，懂了过后的代价是钱包空空咯！


忙和累

A Post For My Dear....

To My Dear TERENCE :

I have composed this post three weeks ago; regarding your 21th birthday... But we were too busy recently until we had no time to online... So, now only I post this !!!

Erm...

Dear, HAPPY BIRTHDAY...

Yesterday was your birthday celebration, and i was so happy because you introduced me to all your secondary friends...it really made me feel happy and sweet...Although it was may be a trifle for you, but it was meaningful for me...

Within this two months, we see each other almost everyday, we tided over many difficulties, solved many problems together , etc...

Being with you, I will never hide every single things of mine... As my previous personal message stated : The secret barriers have been demolished... I told you all my secret, secret that no second person in the world knows, to build up our trust towards each other...

Last thing before I end my post,

I want to thank you for giving me all the wonderful and sweet days to my life !!! Muack !!!


LOVE YOU MUCH

Yay!!!

212121

That's the number that describe it all. Our birthday, our age, and the place we had an amazing birthday party bash.
We had a birthday party at Palate Palette, just around Bukit Bintang, invited all our friends and relatives, totaled up to 80 persons. It was a buffet party serving special western foods. Started at 7.30 and ends at around 12.30, right after blowing the cake.
At 1st, we were very worried about everything, worrying about the foods, the place, the number of people will turn up, the everything, however things got smooth and we were all quite relieved, and happy, and enjoyed every moment!
These are some of the memorable pictures:

Handsome birthday boys and pretty birthday girl

and these are my awesome college friends..

my secondary school friends

Some of Jeremy's friends

and Jeremy's friends..

Eanzhe's secondary school friends

the cool funky environment of Palate Palette..really nice..

friends enjoying their time there. Notice me showing the card, actually I was trying to show number 21, but the flash of my camera overexposed the card..hehe

some of my relatives downstairs

Me and Sandy. The beautiful shirt is what she gave me as my birthday present, it's from Forever 21. Cool huh. And I look macho with it..HaHa! And the watch is my present from my grandma. Thanks!

Our lovely family. Love

A bigger family with all our partners. Plus my mum's close friend

Cutting the birthday cake with my parents

Me doing some cake distribution

Wonderful friends

Outside Palate Palette with my friends and all our presents. Thanks to you all!

Want to say special thanks to my dad for making it possible to happen, because he's our banker. Hehe! Thanks Dad!
And special thanks to my dear Sandy as well, she helped me to search online for places that's suitable for our purpose and our guests, and she found the perfect place, Palate Palette. Muaks!
Also want to say thank you to all my awesome friends, Jeremy's wonderful friends, and Eanzhe's fantastic friends, who made the party a success by taking out their precious time to go to the party. Thank you all for all the joy you brought! Muaks hugs muaks hugs muaks hugs! Thank you!

Officially an Adult!

Missed a dramatic scene when i was solving my urge...damn

哇！kl回复清晰了！一个礼拜前，朦到看不到KLCC，看不到KL，什么都看不到！哈哈！（我没有东西写了，但又答应了 Kathy 要写，所以没有办法咯， 写废话咯！不然，会中她“口巾”的啦，也可以讲会中骂的咯！Sorry Carrie , 我懂你一定会讲我粗，但是没办法，这是我和她的“私人恩怨”！）

最近走STUPID DUKE Highway回时，看到很多死蠢在烧垃圾，而且是不只一间，是很多间！一，二，三...六，七...多到！真的没有脑的！空气都不好的啦，那些死蠢还要烧垃圾，叫他们烧埋自己算了啦，一样是垃圾，污染空气！

昨 天，上课到六点，放学后，刺激咯！学校门口有人示威！
where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote... where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote...where is my vote...
WALAO，high到！當時我在廁所，竟然錯過了！不過我從廁所出來後更刺激！警察开了幾枪，还丢催泪弹，難頂！不過，催淚彈一出，哇， 雞飛狗走！觀眾，學生，警察和抗議者一起跑，很團結喔！哈哈！

我回家时 , 竟然看到警察比"YEAH"...WOW !!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsUyRU2Qup4&NR=1

HIGH !!!

Headache...

Was sick yesterday..

Woke up a bit late, around 1pm, felt some dizziness and some backache, thought that maybe I slept for too long. Took a cold bath, had some light breakfast, and headed to Sandy's dorm at MU.

Reach there, had our lunch together. Then we had nothing to do, so we surfed the web for nothing, quite bored. I said maybe we should go swimming, but I did not bring my stuff for swimming, so my suggestion was dropped.

We chatted for awhile until I felt dizzy and backache again, so I asked Sandy to give me some massage, so relaxing. Haha! While massaging me, she felt that my body heat was hotter than normal, she suspected that I'm sick. She used her forehand to check the temperature of my forehead, and she felt the same thing. I'm SICK.

She quickly got a damp cloth and put it on my forehead to cool down my temperature, and covered me with her blanket. So I lied there, resting and fell asleep slowly. She had nothing to do and no place to sleep, so she continued surfing the web. She also got me to drink some water like every half and hour to keep my body cooled. And then when the water bottle got empty, she went downstairs to refill it, all when I was sleeping. She refilled a 5 liter bottle and a 1.5 liter water bottle and carried it up back to her dorm and into her room where I was resting. Imagine she as a girl, carrying such heavy thing for me, it touched me actually. I could see the love that she showed and how much she cared for me. Love you darling.

At night, I could say that I felt a bit better, but still not fit enough to go back home, let alone the fact that I ride a bike. I don't want to ride a bike with a dizzy head. Hehe. So I stayed overnight at her place. Also want to say sorry to her roommate Adeline because I made some trouble for her, disturbed her privacy. Sorry!

The next day, my body returned to normal mode, functioning optimally. Hehe! All thanks to my darling, muaks!

Recovered

Bleak day

It actually started like any other normal day for me..

Went to Help Uni for class. Saw a pretty girl with a curvy body, looks absolutely stunning, (sorry Sandy, I know you'll be jealous when I talk about her..but for me, you are the prettiest la..K? Haha..) and she's actually Sandy's secondary schoolmate, 1 of the prettiest in her school, as what she told me.

Anyway, it's just a normal day. We left HELP at 2pm instead of 6pm because our tutorial classes will start only on week3, so Sandy and I decided to go 1Utama, which is just 15min ride from HELP. On the way to 1U, my bike suddenly choked, as if it had gotten a bad flu. This was the turning point where things started to get abnormal. I quickly turn a button under the fuel tank, from Direct Fuel Supply into Reserve Fuel Supply, because usually when it chokes, it means that fuel from Direct Fuel Supply is empty, so I have to turn it to Reserve Fuel Supply (for your information, there's no Fuel Indicator on my bike, and this is how I do it always)

So, continue, after turning it, I expected it to go into normal 'breathing' mode and continue running, but my turning action leads to no avail. My choking 'horse' suddenly shuts down, its engine stopped, everything became silent, in the middle of the highway, going on 80kph, with Sandy as my pillion, Oh My God. Luckily I was able to act swiftly. I quickly pull the clutch and let it continue to roll until we stop at the roadside. Sandy quickly got down from the bike and asked "What happened?" with a little bit mix of panic voice..haha! I told her I don't know, cause I really don't know.

I tried to start and start and start and start and start and start and start and start and start and start and start..cant type all here..and start and start....and start..OK enough..and start..stop! My horse was still lifeless. I was puzzled. I was wondering why I can't start it even I had turn it into Reserve Fuel. Maybe it was not the problem, maybe some other mechanical problem.

Then Sandy said we should call Foo cause he's driving and maybe he can help us. So she called, but Foo don't know where we were, so I had to tell him to turn here and turn there and finally he's there. He asked we what happened, and what to do. I told him I don't know, and asked him to buy some petrol to try and see. Well, maybe it was my fault that I forgot refuel the Reserve Fuel Tank. Maybe. I asked Sandy to go with him, because 2 person with 4 eyes, chance of spotting a petrol station is higher, so they went to buy and i waited at the side of my horse.

They were back in 15min, with a Engine Oil in Foo's hand. My horse need water, but he bought some blood for it. Engine oil is for the lubrication of the engine, petrol is for the combustion of the engine. I was a bit shocked. Then he went to the same petrol station again to buy some Petrol. Pity.. (I actually felt guilty cause I brought so many trouble for him, sorry Foo! but i know he's a good guy, Thanks Foo!) OK, then I poured the petrol into my fuel tank and tried to start it again. Crank crank crank crank!! It wont start! I was so frustrated. I waited for a while and tried to start it again, but still the same.

I can't do it anymore, I had no idea what else could I do. And out of no where, I heard some booming sound. It's thunder and its going to rain! Without wasting any time, I faster called my dad so that he can send someone to bring my bike to his workshop, but he did not answer my call. I called my mum, she asked me to call my brother, who works for my dad in his motorbike repair shop, and i called him. After telling him what happened, he told me that my bike is running out of fuel, so i was right, I forgot to pump petrol, even after using the Reserve Fuel. I felt so embarrassed. First time in my life I ride a bike until there's no fuel, in the middle of the highway. So 'Fish'---'yu' in Chinese.

My Brother told me to be patient because it take some time for the petrol I just poured in to flow into the carburetor (the part where petrol and oxygen mix together before being sprayed into the combustion chamber, piston chamber). I waited for a while and tried to start it again. But it just wont start. I felt some rain drops on my head, I knew I had no time anymore, I almost gave up, until---vroommmm! It starts! My horse is breathing again! Thank God! And thanks to Foo and my Brother as well! 2 of us quickly got on the bike and continue our journey. And Foo went back home, and I paid him for his help and the petrol, and the Engine Oil.

Sandy told me that we should go home cause it's raining already. But cruising on the highway, the water droplets didn't just fall on us, it shoot onto our skin. Sandy cant take it anymore, and she changed her mind, so we changed our route again to 1U.

We were so tired and hungry. We went to a restaurant famous for its Oyster Noodle to refill our stomach. The noodle was nice, but the oyster, I don't think it's as nice as how it's hyped, maybe I'm not used to its bizarre taste. Vomit.. After finishing it, we went for window shopping around 1U. We walked into Quiksilver and saw some Reef's sandals, all 50% discount. Sandy can't resist it and bought a pair for herself, for RM20 a pair. Cheap huh! And we saw Kathy's sandal there too, 50%, I'm sorry Kathy..Haha!

After that we decided to go home as it's quite late already, I need to go back to my dad's shop. On the way down the escalator, my Converse shoe lace got stuck in the groove at end of the escalator! Damn! I almost fell down badly. Luckily i was able to pull out my shoe lace by kicking my leg hard to the front. And luckily there weren't many people there, otherwise I'll feel very embarrassed again.

After a tiring and embarrassing day, I went back to my dad's shop. And as expected, I was lectured by my dad and my brother regarding the Out-of-Petrol issue. And that was a bleak day of mine..



Mistakes learned!

Recently

这两个礼拜里，发生了很多事！多到自己也无法一一列出！

其中最记得的是，他表姐结婚，他妈妈有叫我一起去！当时的我，真的蛮紧张和开心，因为我觉得当自己被受肯定是很值得去开心的事！但，每个人都有不一样的想法，我不会知道别人在想什么！所以我也不敢开心得那么早！但是，我确定的是这整个过程我都很享受，还和他妈妈姐姐玩拍照！另外，我也不知道我每次去他家过夜，他的家人会不会不喜欢！虽然，他家人并不像是这样，但是我觉得我还是要做好我自己的本份！我想做到最好！

另外，我觉得我最近犯了错，我不懂为什么我每一天都很想黏着他，我知道这会很烦，我也在控制自己！控制不去想，告诉自己要学习去给彼此的空间！但在这个过程，很累很辛苦！觉得欣慰的是，有时候他会在空闲时，发我一个简单但有意思的信息给我，虽然是很简单但我却会觉得很开心！

“第一个月”
我和他已经一个月多了，这个月里我都很开心！虽然有点误会，但幸亏都因为我们对对方坦白而把事情简单化，当然问题也解决了！就如winnie说的，对对方坦白才是解决问题最佳的方法！但是往往人类都会在事后才真正明白这个道理！

现在，我和他在一个新的读书环境认识着很多的新朋友，当然有男和女！就如Terence所说的，这边有很多来指不同国家的人，有美女当然也有帅哥咯！但是都只能“看”！！在这里，很多东西都不同了。读书方式，课室，环境，等。。。很多东西都要自己安排时间，也许是让我们学习独立吧！不过，这样会很累！或者，我还没习惯？不懂！第二天上课，竟然发生了很糗的事情在我身上！上着课时，我不小心踢到水瓶，然后我便弯腰把它弄好！结果当我要做回原位时，不小心把桌子弄翻了，我的笔和纸都掉在别人的椅子下！还很多人望过来， 糗大了！Terence 在这时还落井下石的跟我说：很“YU”！ KANASAI！

今天，竟然误打误撞认识到 Carrie 和 Jennifer 的朋友！她叫 Jean ，她人很nice，还当场说以后可以在我去学校！但是过后心情就很复杂咯，心想--就差这一步，不然 Carrie 就可以和我一起读这间学校了，真的觉得可惜！很怀念和她一起聊天的日子！

另外，很想念 dmk3 的朋友，看着以前拍过和朋友一起的开心和神经的短片，突然很想念他们！Winnie 的笑声，Kathy的傻样，等等。。。真的很好笑，也很很很想念他们！

怀念

HELP...

今天去了我即将会读的学校，
心情没有很开心，
累？压力？
我自己也不懂！
可能是听到很多自己很不想听到的东西吧！
国语要拿过，
service maketing 和 market research要重新读过，
TAR College做东西又慢，弄到很多东西都做不到，
还在学校等了很久。。。气死！！！

气！

Bla...

It's so late now and I have to go to college early in the morning tomorrow to ask about my damn time table, but I cant sleep now, feeling so not tired at all, maybe it's because I took a long nice rest just now..Hehe.. Finding that I've nothing to do now, I think I should blog, cause it's been quite a long time since I last blogged, and someone is complaining..HAHA!

Now, I'll start it with a little bit about HELP! We enrolled ourselves in HELP University College, and expecting a whole new student life there. Went to HELP campus today as an official student, walked around the big campus with no direction at all, bang here bang there, saw a lot of students from different part of the world, different skin colour, from Africa, Middle East, China, Taiwan, Korea and many more. All with the same purpose, that is to pursue higher education and of course, to make new friends. Seeing so many people from around the world, I'm feeling quite happy and somehow, satisfied, weird..haha.. I'm feeling so is because one of my purpose to transfer to HELP is to make friends with foreign people, to know more about the culture of other countries, and to improve my English, because i can only speak English with them. All this, is because of Globalization. As a future CEO of a big company, I should start everything now..HAHA! (perasan)

Anyway, it's been a hectic and head scratching time for me and my friends at HELP, because everything has to be done by ourselves. We had to go from 1 department to another to get things clear and done, which are mostly not within walking distance luckily they provide feeder bus for students to go back and forth. Besides that, we had to wait for all the people in-charge, they might be attending to other students, answering important call from affiliates college oversea, or having lunch. I almost wanted to scream for HELP!!! but I didn't because things go smooth eventually. Unlike how we've been spoon fed at our previous college, where everything were nicely sorted out and coordinated for us, I take this as an opportunity for us to learn to be independent and to be responsible of our own things, hence prepare ourselves for the uncertain futures lies ahead. YES! haha..

On the other hand, being a student in a college with so many people from so many places, I saw, of course, more beautiful people..haha! Beauties here are not confined to only Chinese people, as how I saw at my previous college, here at HELP, I can see bootilicious African beauty, sweet beauty girl from China, and surely some local beauties with great sense of style. I'm wondering whether I can concentrate in my class or not, with so many International beauties to please my eyes..HAHA..but sadly, that's the maximum thing I'm allowed to do, well, maybe I can make friend with them, not to the extent of intimacy, because I'm not single, I have my love 1, I'll remain faithful..HEHE!

Talking about my love 1, I'm so happy that we've been together for a month already..hehe..we had a sweet 1st month, everything done are more or less happy for both of us, well there's some small glitches but overall, we are very happy to have each other, to do things together, get through happiness and sadness together. Learned more about her, her strengths and weaknesses, her family and lots more. Hope we can do better and remain to be 1 as long as possible. LOVE!

I think that's all for now..Gotta go to bed now, I have to go HELP tomorrow morning to get my time table..So, Good Night!

HELP!!!

A Good Start for "US"

10/05/2009-Sunday
母亲节快乐！

他终于在这天见我妈妈了，值得开心的是我家人对他的印象还不错，他还载我家人去走街呢！后来，妈妈有留他一起吃晚餐，但因为母亲节的关系，他也必须回家陪妈妈！

同一天的晚上，他也向他妈妈承认了我么的恋情！因为宿舍只有我一人的关系，他很不放心，他妈妈也叫我去他家过夜了！其实，当时我的心真的很矛盾，一来他妈妈也开口了，我不应该再说不要！但另一边，我觉得我会给她妈妈一个不好的印象，因为我在之前的恋情犯过同样的错，我不想再犯回同样的错！

这天，我真的觉得很不好意思，因为他弟弟把房间让了给我们，然后去睡姐姐的房间，而他姐姐就去他大哥的房间睡！真的麻烦了很多人！后来我又知道，他为了载我而不让我等，他在踢球时早走半个小时！有一点开心叻！当晚大家都大概五点多早上才睡觉，很累！

感动

My "Holiday" at Melati Utama

04/05/2009-Monday
今天发现原来他超厉害出汗！很够力，因为天气热的关系，他的汗可以弄到我的床单都弄湿！搞到我要换掉刚换不久的床单！haiz！！！过了不久，突然发现我们竟然在同一天，同一时间，同一地点，同一动作，做会同样的东西！ 有点惊讶但很开心！

05/05/2009-Tuesday
今天我和他准备了去报名的东西，但是因为资料不足的关系，弄不成当然也去不成！无奈！然后便想到去找Kathy，Ginger，Derek，和Hek Yi 去Times Square看戏咯！去到时已经开场了，很遗憾看不到前面的部分！这次是我和他一起后的第一部电影，而且他的手一直牵到一套戏看完，真的有点感动！哈哈！

晚上时，他载我去Carrie家，因为我要跟Carrie 和Wai Ing 去听讲座会！但是对我来说，最有意义的事是Wai Ing 哥哥对我说的一番话，我真的觉得我很对不起妈妈！觉得很内疚！从那一刻开始，我觉得我叛逆了很久，是时候要对我妈妈很好，比现在更好！

06/05/2009-Wednesday
今天是Winnie的生日，同时我们班也举办了一个聚会在Feeling Cafe！下午的时候真的闷到不顶！他大概六点才来载我！来到后才发现忘了带衣服，他又回店拿衣服，最后我们竟然迟到了！今天的聚会有点闷，我觉得我好像 有点失败！但是我觉得我们一起送Winnie的生日礼物，真的很有意思！希望她会记得我们当她拿着那把枪吧！哈哈！

过后我们便去了喝茶和打机，因为戴着隐形眼镜的关系，我的双眼很不舒服，到最后还红到不顶！然后他马上去车拿盒子给我脱掉眼镜，当时我还以为他去上厕所，真的很感动！当时因为太晚了的关系，所以他留在我家过夜！很倒霉的事，厕所没有灯，所以都摸黑冲凉！

想回家

Life is Beautiful

Anson在今天早上自杀了，很庆幸的是她没事了。。对于她的做法我是绝对完全不赞成和不鼓励，但我真的没有想到她真的敢敢做了！三个小时前，她曾打过给我，那时的她是根本不会，也没有理由要自杀！当时的她，很肯定地对我说她终于放下了，完完全全的放下她对Zai的爱，有的只有恨！但我真的很想问清楚她，既然放下了，为什么还要自杀？！难道在她的世界除了女友，就没有东西值得让她好好的活下去吗？！但我知道现在不是问她这个问题的时候！

其实，“爱”真的可以令人伤得那么深吗？我真的不知道！但我知道这一切对她来说是个蛮大的打击，唯一的亲人去世了，另一边又被女朋友抛弃，再加上发现原来女友一直在家人面前把自已说得一文不值，颠倒是非！换了是我，我真的不知要怎么办！但愿，她死而复生经过这一切后，她会珍惜它现在所拥有的一切吧，妈妈栽培给她的智慧，妈妈留给她的产业，关心她的朋友，等。。。另外，今天很可惜的是，我去不到医院探望她！希望她能快点康复和希望她不要再做那样的傻事了！

惊讶&无奈

Scrorching Hot Weather!!!

HOT!!!

1 word describes it all. The weather these days is really unbearable. Even switching on the air conditioner make no help on cooling down my body. The sweat kept flowing helplessly out from my body, making my body smelly. My face is oily almost all the time, making my face to be acne prone, and whats worse is that I've eaten so many oily foods (chocolate, spicy food, fried food, peanuts!) lately, I wish i could do plastic surgery to remove all of 'em. I look so horrible now, making my self-confident to plunge. SHIT!

My darling asked me to go her house to bring her family for a dinner. Wow, I'm so happy that she asked me to do so. I want to do it so much. I can get closer to her by getting to know her family. YES! But, i can't! Yea, i told her that I cant because of my acne, i lacked confident..hehe..well, it's actually 1 tiny part of the reason i can't do it. Meeting a partner's parent for me is like going for a job interview. I need to know more about the company before i go for a job interview, I must know what I'm doing and what is expected from me in my profession, I must be confident, and the most important, well, otherwise quite important, is a good first impression. In other word, I must know more about my girlfriend's parent beforehand so that I won't make any mistake, I must be close and know more deeply about my girlfriend so I know what I am in front of her and her family, and lastly, I must be in my best look, clean and trimmed. No messy hair, dirty look and messy outfit. So, I need time to achieve all this before I can go for this so called Job Interview. Actually, the first impression thing can be done within a day. Hehe! Hope my darling can understand this and give me more time to learn more about her and her family so that I can do best. I wanna score 4.0! HAHA!

On the other hand, in my opinion, life's too short for committing suicide. Well, maybe I've not been into this kinda situation or whatsoever before, so I don't really understand how it feels like to be hurt so deeply. But, i still think that committing suicide is the stupidest thing to do on earth. We are born to this wonderful earth to experience all the amazing things it offers. We are able to listen to beautiful songs, eat delicious foods, go traveling to paradises on earth, look at the morning sunrise, make fun of our friends, be good to others so that other people feel happy and eventually we feel happy, buy things that complement ourselves, make ourselves better, visit porn site, make love, have sex..opps, where have i gone to..err..yea, just so many good this to do. Well, I know life isn't always that beautiful, we are human and sad things are things that we must go through, its essential, because after all, if we never go through any sad time, we won't be able to know how it feels like to be happy. The world is always about relativity. Sadness exist so that we can compare it to happiness. Looking for happiness is human instinct. We must be able to overcome sadness. The deeper the sadness that we overcome, the bigger the happiness we can get eventually. Why commit suicide? Committing suicide is for those who can't defeat themselves. Committing suicide is like telling others that one fails in life. Don't commit suicide. Overcome the sadness. Look for things that make yourself happy. There are tons of tons of tons of countless of countless of things on earth can make ourselves happy. Be smart. Be happy. Be human. God bless us all!

Boring...

My very FIRST and HAPPY day

今天我回到了宿舍，很期待见到你。。。
过了不久，当我见到你时，我就变得很开心和很自然地笑了出来。。。但是过了不久，你的朋友打来叫你一点去踢球了，其实我没有不爽也没有不允许，只是有点不舍得而已！但是既然你都答应了明天会来见我，所以我也不和你计较那么多吧！

今天又是一天令我难忘的一天，今天我们一起试戴隐形眼镜，很好笑也很开心！其实今天是我第一次戴隐形眼镜，我的心情既紧张又期待！我们两个人在整个过程都手忙脚乱，隐形眼镜翻了又翻，洗了又洗，跌了又跌，很好笑！

当一切准备好后，你让我先戴，其实我的心情是很怕但我又很想试！然后我便把右眼的隐形眼镜戴上了！但是你呢，用蛮长的时间才戴上！最好笑的是，你的眼泪竟然在你戴上眼镜后一直流不停！但是一向爱演的你，在这个时候都还可以演戏，最好笑的是你在演哭戏！太好笑了，在你旁边的我直接是笑翻了！后来我便把两个都戴上了，在一旁的你说眼睛很好看，其实我很开心！

到了大概十二点时，你准备走了，但是在你走之前，你和我玩了一些很幼稚但很开心的东西！其实当时我很开心，我没有想到你也玩这一种东西，我当时真的仿佛有点回到小时候的感觉！很开心也很怀念！但是我毕竟是女子啊，一定会怕的嘛，你还要笑我像个小孩！有够糗！

但是在你走了过后，我就惨咯，肚子饿到我晕。结果我吃了很多零食，但并不饱！其实我的世界会很闷每当你走了过后，一个人不知道能做些什么！真的很希望你每天都在我身边！

想念你

The New Chapter of My Life

I seriously don't know what to write about in my very 1st post. I'm not a person who express my feelings out easily to others, maybe that's why sometimes I made some bad decision about things in life. So now, through this blog, I can share my feelings with others, especially my significant one. ^^

My life has always been about 'improving myself, to be a better man'. I try my very best to be good to others, learn anything, get involved in everything, just to make my life colorful.

I've been in and out of relationships for a few times, of all which last no more than half a year. Sad. I consider myself as a not so good in relationship thingy person. Maybe one of the reason is the one as I said, I hardly express my feelings or thoughts to others, causing them to be tired digging out about what I want. I kept myself single for almost 2 years. 2 short diploma years I spent with my college friends, hanging and fooling around like no one cares, because I'm single. It was a fun and memorable times with all of them..Muah..!

Not until the final semester of my diploma that I think that, maybe it's time for me to look for a new life, a new environment that will set the path of my future. I decided to transfer to a different college for my degree. On the other hand, this is the very semester I find that I have a strong feeling toward someone, and that is YOU. ^^

My feeling toward YOU starts to build up since the day we enrolled for guitar class. We spent a lot of time, doing many stuffs, going to many places together and talked about a lot of things, things that I seldom tell others. It was really nice to have you around. I can't imagine myself doing nothing in this final semester if there weren't a girl like you. 27th is the day I gave u my heart, there's no other better time to tell u I LOVE YOU. It was wonderful.

Being with you, I find that I have purpose in life. I know what I want, I think farther into future, I have a commitment that I want it to be working. I have YOU. Although it's only been a short time, I already know clearly what is responsibility, thoughtfulness, happiness, sadness, forgiveness, i know what is true love..

Can't wait to go Bali, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan, and Paris with YOU!

LOVE

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."

— Bob Marley

My NEW LIFE

今天是我和你开始后的第六天，而这次是也是我第一次写部落格，而心情除了开心还是开心。

在这几天里，我们之间发生了很多事，有的开心，有的痛心，有的动心，当然也有担心。其实我从来没有想过我们会在一起，因为我总觉得我配不起你，而你也不可能会喜欢我！但是到了最后，我们还是在一起了。真的很不可思议！

每当我静静地想着我们开始之前你所谓的计划，看星星，煮面，陪我读书，等等，我都会很自然的笑了出来。因为，我从来没有想过你会做这种事情。到了我最后一张考试后，你向我表白了！当时，我们是如此的靠近，而我的心跳快到我自己都顶不顺！当然，我立刻答应了和你一起，但其实我真等了很久！

但在我们的第二天，你病得很严重，甚至连话都说不到，而我却什么也做不到！而且晚上还出去和朋友喝茶和喝酒，还要你和winnie他们担心，真的很没用！对不起！

第三天，我终于见到你了，而你的病也没那么严重了，开心是当然的！但是这一天，我也把我最不想说的秘密告诉了你。当时，我真的很怕，我不想没有了你！但正如winnie和shu yeen 所说的，如果我打算和你一起很久，就不应该骗你！也不该有东西隐瞒你，这才会给到你对我的信心！当时，当我讲完我的秘密后，虽然我真的不想你离开我，但我没有想过你会原谅我！结果，你对我说，你觉得你好像变得不认识我，我的心当场真的很痛！但是后来，你问我是不是爱你，而我说“是”，然后你却说爱你就足够了！当时，我真的很感动，也很感激你不嫌弃我！我真的认定你是我的永远了！我爱你！

第四天，我们第一次去拍拖！这是我人生中第一次坐摩托去逛街，也是第一次去那么远，还要是淋雨那种，不过我很享受整个过程，也觉得很浪漫很开心！那天你说我变得很不一样，比起平时我那天比较害羞！其实，那时的我真的很害羞！我也不知道为什么会这样！哈哈，很糗很笨叻！过后你带我去MNG逛，你也选了一件连身裙给我，然后你还买了它送给我！除了开心和说谢谢，我真的不知道该说什么才好，因为那是我第一件连身裙！然后我们又发现一件裙很美，又把它买了下来！到最后才排队去Zara买衣服！但是那边很多人，多到我们都没有逛街的心情，而且我们身上都没有很多钱了，所以我们才买了一件我的衣服！而你呢，却一件都没有买到，其实我有点内疚！哈哈，对不起哦！当天，有些事情弄到我们很担心，很不知所措，不过很快的，我们也把问题解决了！真的很开心有你在我身边陪着我！

而昨天和今天因为我在家的关系，都见不到你！你好像很忙，而我又不敢打扰你。不过，我在这两天里真的真的很想念你！另外，也很期待你将会写什么！明天后，我又可以在见到你咯，期待着。。。

我爱你