10/05/2009-Sunday
母亲节快乐！
他终于在这天见我妈妈了，值得开心的是我家人对他的印象还不错，他还载我家人去走街呢！后来，妈妈有留他一起吃晚餐，但因为母亲节的关系，他也必须回家陪妈妈！
同一天的晚上，他也向他妈妈承认了我么的恋情！因为宿舍只有我一人的关系，他很不放心，他妈妈也叫我去他家过夜了！其实，当时我的心真的很矛盾，一来他妈妈也开口了，我不应该再说不要！但另一边，我觉得我会给她妈妈一个不好的印象，因为我在之前的恋情犯过同样的错，我不想再犯回同样的错！
这天，我真的觉得很不好意思，因为他弟弟把房间让了给我们，然后去睡姐姐的房间，而他姐姐就去他大哥的房间睡！真的麻烦了很多人！后来我又知道，他为了载我而不让我等，他在踢球时早走半个小时！有一点开心叻！当晚大家都大概五点多早上才睡觉，很累！
感动
A Good Start for "US"
My "Holiday" at Melati Utama
04/05/2009-Monday
今天发现原来他超厉害出汗！很够力，因为天气热的关系，他的汗可以弄到我的床单都弄湿！搞到我要换掉刚换不久的床单！haiz！！！过了不久，突然发现我们竟然在同一天，同一时间，同一地点，同一动作，做会同样的东西！ 有点惊讶但很开心！
05/05/2009-Tuesday
今天我和他准备了去报名的东西，但是因为资料不足的关系，弄不成当然也去不成！无奈！然后便想到去找Kathy，Ginger，Derek，和Hek Yi 去Times Square看戏咯！去到时已经开场了，很遗憾看不到前面的部分！这次是我和他一起后的第一部电影，而且他的手一直牵到一套戏看完，真的有点感动！哈哈！
晚上时，他载我去Carrie家，因为我要跟Carrie 和Wai Ing 去听讲座会！但是对我来说，最有意义的事是Wai Ing 哥哥对我说的一番话，我真的觉得我很对不起妈妈！觉得很内疚！从那一刻开始，我觉得我叛逆了很久，是时候要对我妈妈很好，比现在更好！
06/05/2009-Wednesday
今天是Winnie的生日，同时我们班也举办了一个聚会在Feeling Cafe！下午的时候真的闷到不顶！他大概六点才来载我！来到后才发现忘了带衣服，他又回店拿衣服，最后我们竟然迟到了！今天的聚会有点闷，我觉得我好像 有点失败！但是我觉得我们一起送Winnie的生日礼物，真的很有意思！希望她会记得我们当她拿着那把枪吧！哈哈！
过后我们便去了喝茶和打机，因为戴着隐形眼镜的关系，我的双眼很不舒服，到最后还红到不顶！然后他马上去车拿盒子给我脱掉眼镜，当时我还以为他去上厕所，真的很感动！当时因为太晚了的关系，所以他留在我家过夜！很倒霉的事，厕所没有灯，所以都摸黑冲凉！
想回家
Life is Beautiful
Anson在今天早上自杀了，很庆幸的是她没事了。。对于她的做法我是绝对完全不赞成和不鼓励，但我真的没有想到她真的敢敢做了！三个小时前，她曾打过给我，那时的她是根本不会，也没有理由要自杀！当时的她，很肯定地对我说她终于放下了，完完全全的放下她对Zai的爱，有的只有恨！但我真的很想问清楚她，既然放下了，为什么还要自杀？！难道在她的世界除了女友，就没有东西值得让她好好的活下去吗？！但我知道现在不是问她这个问题的时候！
其实，“爱”真的可以令人伤得那么深吗？我真的不知道！但我知道这一切对她来说是个蛮大的打击，唯一的亲人去世了，另一边又被女朋友抛弃，再加上发现原来女友一直在家人面前把自已说得一文不值，颠倒是非！换了是我，我真的不知要怎么办！但愿，她死而复生经过这一切后，她会珍惜它现在所拥有的一切吧，妈妈栽培给她的智慧，妈妈留给她的产业，关心她的朋友，等。。。另外，今天很可惜的是，我去不到医院探望她！希望她能快点康复和希望她不要再做那样的傻事了！
惊讶&无奈
Scrorching Hot Weather!!!
HOT!!!
1 word describes it all. The weather these days is really unbearable. Even switching on the air conditioner make no help on cooling down my body. The sweat kept flowing helplessly out from my body, making my body smelly. My face is oily almost all the time, making my face to be acne prone, and whats worse is that I've eaten so many oily foods (chocolate, spicy food, fried food, peanuts!) lately, I wish i could do plastic surgery to remove all of 'em. I look so horrible now, making my self-confident to plunge. SHIT!
My darling asked me to go her house to bring her family for a dinner. Wow, I'm so happy that she asked me to do so. I want to do it so much. I can get closer to her by getting to know her family. YES! But, i can't! Yea, i told her that I cant because of my acne, i lacked confident..hehe..well, it's actually 1 tiny part of the reason i can't do it. Meeting a partner's parent for me is like going for a job interview. I need to know more about the company before i go for a job interview, I must know what I'm doing and what is expected from me in my profession, I must be confident, and the most important, well, otherwise quite important, is a good first impression. In other word, I must know more about my girlfriend's parent beforehand so that I won't make any mistake, I must be close and know more deeply about my girlfriend so I know what I am in front of her and her family, and lastly, I must be in my best look, clean and trimmed. No messy hair, dirty look and messy outfit. So, I need time to achieve all this before I can go for this so called Job Interview. Actually, the first impression thing can be done within a day. Hehe! Hope my darling can understand this and give me more time to learn more about her and her family so that I can do best. I wanna score 4.0! HAHA!
On the other hand, in my opinion, life's too short for committing suicide. Well, maybe I've not been into this kinda situation or whatsoever before, so I don't really understand how it feels like to be hurt so deeply. But, i still think that committing suicide is the stupidest thing to do on earth. We are born to this wonderful earth to experience all the amazing things it offers. We are able to listen to beautiful songs, eat delicious foods, go traveling to paradises on earth, look at the morning sunrise, make fun of our friends, be good to others so that other people feel happy and eventually we feel happy, buy things that complement ourselves, make ourselves better, visit porn site, make love, have sex..opps, where have i gone to..err..yea, just so many good this to do. Well, I know life isn't always that beautiful, we are human and sad things are things that we must go through, its essential, because after all, if we never go through any sad time, we won't be able to know how it feels like to be happy. The world is always about relativity. Sadness exist so that we can compare it to happiness. Looking for happiness is human instinct. We must be able to overcome sadness. The deeper the sadness that we overcome, the bigger the happiness we can get eventually. Why commit suicide? Committing suicide is for those who can't defeat themselves. Committing suicide is like telling others that one fails in life. Don't commit suicide. Overcome the sadness. Look for things that make yourself happy. There are tons of tons of tons of countless of countless of things on earth can make ourselves happy. Be smart. Be happy. Be human. God bless us all!
Boring...
Boring...
My very FIRST and HAPPY day
今天我回到了宿舍，很期待见到你。。。
过了不久，当我见到你时，我就变得很开心和很自然地笑了出来。。。但是过了不久，你的朋友打来叫你一点去踢球了，其实我没有不爽也没有不允许，只是有点不舍得而已！但是既然你都答应了明天会来见我，所以我也不和你计较那么多吧！
今天又是一天令我难忘的一天，今天我们一起试戴隐形眼镜，很好笑也很开心！其实今天是我第一次戴隐形眼镜，我的心情既紧张又期待！我们两个人在整个过程都手忙脚乱，隐形眼镜翻了又翻，洗了又洗，跌了又跌，很好笑！
当一切准备好后，你让我先戴，其实我的心情是很怕但我又很想试！然后我便把右眼的隐形眼镜戴上了！但是你呢，用蛮长的时间才戴上！最好笑的是，你的眼泪竟然在你戴上眼镜后一直流不停！但是一向爱演的你，在这个时候都还可以演戏，最好笑的是你在演哭戏！太好笑了，在你旁边的我直接是笑翻了！后来我便把两个都戴上了，在一旁的你说眼睛很好看，其实我很开心！
到了大概十二点时，你准备走了，但是在你走之前，你和我玩了一些很幼稚但很开心的东西！其实当时我很开心，我没有想到你也玩这一种东西，我当时真的仿佛有点回到小时候的感觉！很开心也很怀念！但是我毕竟是女子啊，一定会怕的嘛，你还要笑我像个小孩！有够糗！
但是在你走了过后，我就惨咯，肚子饿到我晕。结果我吃了很多零食，但并不饱！其实我的世界会很闷每当你走了过后，一个人不知道能做些什么！真的很希望你每天都在我身边！
想念你
The New Chapter of My Life
I seriously don't know what to write about in my very 1st post. I'm not a person who express my feelings out easily to others, maybe that's why sometimes I made some bad decision about things in life. So now, through this blog, I can share my feelings with others, especially my significant one. ^^
My life has always been about 'improving myself, to be a better man'. I try my very best to be good to others, learn anything, get involved in everything, just to make my life colorful.
I've been in and out of relationships for a few times, of all which last no more than half a year. Sad. I consider myself as a not so good in relationship thingy person. Maybe one of the reason is the one as I said, I hardly express my feelings or thoughts to others, causing them to be tired digging out about what I want. I kept myself single for almost 2 years. 2 short diploma years I spent with my college friends, hanging and fooling around like no one cares, because I'm single. It was a fun and memorable times with all of them..Muah..!
Not until the final semester of my diploma that I think that, maybe it's time for me to look for a new life, a new environment that will set the path of my future. I decided to transfer to a different college for my degree. On the other hand, this is the very semester I find that I have a strong feeling toward someone, and that is YOU. ^^
My feeling toward YOU starts to build up since the day we enrolled for guitar class. We spent a lot of time, doing many stuffs, going to many places together and talked about a lot of things, things that I seldom tell others. It was really nice to have you around. I can't imagine myself doing nothing in this final semester if there weren't a girl like you. 27th is the day I gave u my heart, there's no other better time to tell u I LOVE YOU. It was wonderful.
Being with you, I find that I have purpose in life. I know what I want, I think farther into future, I have a commitment that I want it to be working. I have YOU. Although it's only been a short time, I already know clearly what is responsibility, thoughtfulness, happiness, sadness, forgiveness, i know what is true love..
Can't wait to go Bali, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan, and Paris with YOU!
LOVE
My life has always been about 'improving myself, to be a better man'. I try my very best to be good to others, learn anything, get involved in everything, just to make my life colorful.
I've been in and out of relationships for a few times, of all which last no more than half a year. Sad. I consider myself as a not so good in relationship thingy person. Maybe one of the reason is the one as I said, I hardly express my feelings or thoughts to others, causing them to be tired digging out about what I want. I kept myself single for almost 2 years. 2 short diploma years I spent with my college friends, hanging and fooling around like no one cares, because I'm single. It was a fun and memorable times with all of them..Muah..!
Not until the final semester of my diploma that I think that, maybe it's time for me to look for a new life, a new environment that will set the path of my future. I decided to transfer to a different college for my degree. On the other hand, this is the very semester I find that I have a strong feeling toward someone, and that is YOU. ^^
My feeling toward YOU starts to build up since the day we enrolled for guitar class. We spent a lot of time, doing many stuffs, going to many places together and talked about a lot of things, things that I seldom tell others. It was really nice to have you around. I can't imagine myself doing nothing in this final semester if there weren't a girl like you. 27th is the day I gave u my heart, there's no other better time to tell u I LOVE YOU. It was wonderful.
Being with you, I find that I have purpose in life. I know what I want, I think farther into future, I have a commitment that I want it to be working. I have YOU. Although it's only been a short time, I already know clearly what is responsibility, thoughtfulness, happiness, sadness, forgiveness, i know what is true love..
Can't wait to go Bali, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Japan, and Paris with YOU!
LOVE
"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there."
— Bob Marley
My NEW LIFE
今天是我和你开始后的第六天，而这次是也是我第一次写部落格，而心情除了开心还是开心。
在这几天里，我们之间发生了很多事，有的开心，有的痛心，有的动心，当然也有担心。其实我从来没有想过我们会在一起，因为我总觉得我配不起你，而你也不可能会喜欢我！但是到了最后，我们还是在一起了。真的很不可思议！
每当我静静地想着我们开始之前你所谓的计划，看星星，煮面，陪我读书，等等，我都会很自然的笑了出来。因为，我从来没有想过你会做这种事情。到了我最后一张考试后，你向我表白了！当时，我们是如此的靠近，而我的心跳快到我自己都顶不顺！当然，我立刻答应了和你一起，但其实我真等了很久！
但在我们的第二天，你病得很严重，甚至连话都说不到，而我却什么也做不到！而且晚上还出去和朋友喝茶和喝酒，还要你和winnie他们担心，真的很没用！对不起！
第三天，我终于见到你了，而你的病也没那么严重了，开心是当然的！但是这一天，我也把我最不想说的秘密告诉了你。当时，我真的很怕，我不想没有了你！但正如winnie和shu yeen 所说的，如果我打算和你一起很久，就不应该骗你！也不该有东西隐瞒你，这才会给到你对我的信心！当时，当我讲完我的秘密后，虽然我真的不想你离开我，但我没有想过你会原谅我！结果，你对我说，你觉得你好像变得不认识我，我的心当场真的很痛！但是后来，你问我是不是爱你，而我说“是”，然后你却说爱你就足够了！当时，我真的很感动，也很感激你不嫌弃我！我真的认定你是我的永远了！我爱你！
第四天，我们第一次去拍拖！这是我人生中第一次坐摩托去逛街，也是第一次去那么远，还要是淋雨那种，不过我很享受整个过程，也觉得很浪漫很开心！那天你说我变得很不一样，比起平时我那天比较害羞！其实，那时的我真的很害羞！我也不知道为什么会这样！哈哈，很糗很笨叻！过后你带我去MNG逛，你也选了一件连身裙给我，然后你还买了它送给我！除了开心和说谢谢，我真的不知道该说什么才好，因为那是我第一件连身裙！然后我们又发现一件裙很美，又把它买了下来！到最后才排队去Zara买衣服！但是那边很多人，多到我们都没有逛街的心情，而且我们身上都没有很多钱了，所以我们才买了一件我的衣服！而你呢，却一件都没有买到，其实我有点内疚！哈哈，对不起哦！当天，有些事情弄到我们很担心，很不知所措，不过很快的，我们也把问题解决了！真的很开心有你在我身边陪着我！
而昨天和今天因为我在家的关系，都见不到你！你好像很忙，而我又不敢打扰你。不过，我在这两天里真的真的很想念你！另外，也很期待你将会写什么！明天后，我又可以在见到你咯，期待着。。。
我爱你
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